It's been awhile, but here is another heart to heart. I am frustrated right now...there is so much I thought would be happening right now that is either not going to happen or be a month or two away. Patience is hard for me. (I guess it is for most) I long for closure, for something I can bank on for awhile. I am ready to lay down my roots. Writing this all out is therapeutic for me, while I write I am reminded of how my troubles actually seem so puny when I really think about it. They are...yet they aren't. Does that make sense? Its all perspective I suppose. I really am a lucky lady. I have all the support of our family. If we need anything we typically have someone ready to volunteer their help. I do long for a community though, a home. Its the one thing I miss about church...the community. I feel like the non-religious crowd misses out on the good things religion brings to the table, community being one of them. But I suppose I am getting off track, I have been a bit M.I.A because I have so much on my mind but I am unsure of how much I should share...it's nothing especially personal but there are somethings I am not comfortable talking about until I know are definite.
I can say for sure that we are moving to Athens, GA tomorrow! (eeeeeeeeeee!!!) I am so very, very excited about that. I already have a blooming community there that I am so eager to get to. It is so nice to know that we will be in our home city (at least for a good while now). I love Athens. It feels so homey to me. Its a perfect mesh of Auburn and Asheville, maybe even a little NYC in there.
I know I need to just have a quiet thankfulness right now, just remain patient counting my blessings. My life is now and somedays you have to choose to enjoy it...and thats what I am going to do. On those rough days, I will choose happiness. I know there is so much waiting for us in Athens, I can feel it. And all the little things are just that, little. On days like today I need that reminder. Closure is good and I ache for it, but life is good now too. Here's to the good thing in my life and the other things that I long for, its good to have hopes and dreams.
Thanks for listening in on my pep talk.
xoxo
Stay strong! Moments like this can seem really hard. But, remembering what you have (husband, 2 amazing daughters, family, friends, etc) is always a breath of fresh air. I hope and pray that you find peace and joy in these times of frustration and waiting. You've got a great support team! :-) Congrats on moving to Athens. I have only ever heard amazing things about that town. I hope to someday visit!
ReplyDeleteOk, first off this picture of you is gorgeous. And second, I know EXACTLY how you feel. We live super far away from everyone we know and don't exactly like our location. But for a while we are going to be stuck here so I have to make the best of it! It gets really frustrating but blogging has been a great outlet! And I just have to remember that all this sacrifice will pay off someday and I will have a home of my own in a city that I love. Good luck with your move to Athens! I wish the best for you and your family!
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I love your blog. You are seriously so inspiring. Thanks to you I got the Desert Essences Coconut shampoo and conditioner and love it :) You inspire me to live a simpler life. Because of you I have switched over the completely organic/vegan beauty products, and I just love reading your posts in general. I hope whatever you are feeling impatient about happens soon. And I hope your move goes smoothly :)
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I understand your feelings of loss of community. were you brought up in church?? -it's tricky to leave that behind.
ReplyDeleteAs rough as it might seem sometimes-even if it is just from things whizzing around your head- I feel like these little stages are key to grow and realise what we have and really need!
I hope it passes soon and all goes well with moving...I don't know where Athens is (except for the one in Greece)...maybe I shall have a little look on google! :) :)
happy thoughts. good things will come your way.
ReplyDeletei know how you feel, right now. it's been hard for me too.
ReplyDeletei am really trying to re focus on the happy.
hope you get through everything sanely! ha
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You truly have a beautiful soul! And no worries , you'll find your spot! Where patience meets action , and then it will all meet and excite you! Its always worth the wait !
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wooo!!
ReplyDeleteAthens is such a cool little place
Oh, darling. When we found out we were expecting Jules, we moved (within a month of finding out) from NYC back to the middle-of-nowhere Wisconsin. We lived in a tiny town of 4,000 people with no friends, no culture, and nothing to do for 4 years. I still have no idea how we made it that long. But it strengthened us a family unit and showed us what we don't want. So I hear you! You are going to Athens tomorrow and everything will turn around. Spring is here. Summer is about to arrive. Hang on. Things will start to get good again!
ReplyDeleteI know exactly what you mean. Our struggles may be small (or "first world") compared to those of others, but they are still struggles all the same. There is no point system or oneupmanship when it comes to our personal challenges.
ReplyDeleteI love your blog! I'm a regular follower, but I've only commented a few times. I feel you on these issues girl! My hubby and I actually live 20 minutes from Athens and my brother goes to UGA, so we are there a lot. We'd love to meet you guys!
ReplyDeleteI wish I could be there for you in real life! Just think.. some day you will look back on this time as a grand adventure that you and your family went on. You will be settled before you know it and everything will fall into place. i have a feeling you would feel right at home in my town chico,ca. Its a fun little progressive hippie college town in northern Ca. Wish you lived here! Anyway.. hang in there and take deep breaths... You are loved!
ReplyDeleteI've followed your blog for a little while now, you and your family are precious. Athens is indeed awesome. I live here, I'm a faculty at UGA. I am sure that you will find the community that you seek. I don't know if you have living arrangements settled, but it happens that someone in my department is subletting their little home as their family moves to Texas at the end of the month. She has children the same age as yours, so I know it would fit a small family. I'd be happy to share the information with you. Best of luck!
ReplyDeletestruggles are still struggles, no matter how big or small. sending some love your way. be safe on your move tomorrow! i too wish i had more of a community in real life, besides online. or at least wish so badly some of my online friends were real life friends. i have no sense of community anymore now that we bought a house outside of our little town. i fly solo most days and at times it can be kind of sad. i guess the only good thing about that is i get alot of creative stuff done. but emotionally i still long for that tangilbe connection. xoxo.
ReplyDeleteOh how I feel you!!!! we will sigh together and remind each other to be thankful and happy with what we have and where we are at :) Thanks for the reminder! <3
ReplyDeleteStruggles will make you appreciate that closure you long for, just that much more! As long as you're able to bring out this positive attitude some of the time, you don't need to be smiling and singing every minute! Things will all work out! :)
ReplyDelete"I feel like the non-religious crowd misses out on the good things religion brings to the table, community being one of them."
ReplyDeleteNot true what so ever.
oh my goodness ATHENS! congrats and best of luck with the move - talk to you soon xoxox
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you'll feel at least a little, if not a lot, better after the move and you're settled and unpacked. Moving is so stressful! Good luck with it. Kellie xx
ReplyDeleteBekah, I know the home-buying process can be long and drawn out and painful at times. You have been on my mind a lot and I've been wondering how things were going. Hang in there... lots of loop holes to jump through and people and institutions to keep happy... you're not alone. If you want to come on down to the ATL and hang out just let me know babe! I love you and I am thinking of and praying for you. You still have community, we're just all spread out. Much love my sweet friend.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel a bit better after the move. I think we all get into these "funks" every now and then. But so long as your able to step back, breathe, and enjoy what you have you'll be just fine. :)
ReplyDeleteMuch love coming your way! I know you're going to love Athens though!! We're in ATL but I go to Athens often to visit friends in grad school there. It's got a great vibe!
ReplyDeleteps: Welcome to Georgia :-)