It's been awhile, but here is another heart to heart. I am frustrated right now...there is so much I thought would be happening right now that is either not going to happen or be a month or two away. Patience is hard for me. (I guess it is for most) I long for closure, for something I can bank on for awhile. I am ready to lay down my roots. Writing this all out is therapeutic for me, while I write I am reminded of how my troubles actually seem so puny when I really think about it. They are...yet they aren't. Does that make sense? Its all perspective I suppose. I really am a lucky lady. I have all the support of our family. If we need anything we typically have someone ready to volunteer their help. I do long for a community though, a home. Its the one thing I miss about church...the community. I feel like the non-religious crowd misses out on the good things religion brings to the table, community being one of them. But I suppose I am getting off track, I have been a bit M.I.A because I have so much on my mind but I am unsure of how much I should share...it's nothing especially personal but there are somethings I am not comfortable talking about until I know are definite.
I can say for sure that we are moving to Athens, GA tomorrow! (eeeeeeeeeee!!!) I am so very, very excited about that. I already have a blooming community there that I am so eager to get to. It is so nice to know that we will be in our home city (at least for a good while now). I love Athens. It feels so homey to me. Its a perfect mesh of Auburn and Asheville, maybe even a little NYC in there.
I know I need to just have a quiet thankfulness right now, just remain patient counting my blessings. My life is now and somedays you have to choose to enjoy it...and thats what I am going to do. On those rough days, I will choose happiness. I know there is so much waiting for us in Athens, I can feel it. And all the little things are just that, little. On days like today I need that reminder. Closure is good and I ache for it, but life is good now too. Here's to the good thing in my life and the other things that I long for, its good to have hopes and dreams.
Thanks for listening in on my pep talk.