on my mind. moving, growth, money and such.

So, we are at my mother-in-laws, we still had a few boxes of things stored here (books and more books, really!) She has a pool so we have been taking advantage of sun time. Ocean has been about to pass out at night. Luna hasn't been too crazy about the pool...I think because she isn't fully confidant in her ability to go it alone. She isn't crazy about having to be held. She is loving being with her Mimi's two dogs. (Even though one of them isn't liking the attention) 
I am really eager to be home and settle in but we have a few things holding us back. First, we need a washer/dryer and fridge. Marc's dad just replaced their washing machine/dryer and fridge and is giving them to us but we won't be able to get them until August 25th. I think our plan for now is to use a mini-fridge that one of Marc's brothers had used in his college days and to just "make-do" with hand washing clothes. I am pretty excited about trying this until we get a real washer. It's been really frustrating still not really being settled in. If I am honest with myself (and you) I will admit that I have been battling a bit of sadness over the fact that money is so tight. Its depressing. I am happily awaiting the day when making ends meet is something that is known rather than stressed about. I feel a lot better writing this, it helps put things in perspective for me. I know my situation is stressful but I have a lot of help and support on all ends. A free washer and dryer when you need one...thats something to be thankful for. Other than that, I am nesting like a 9 month pregnant woman. Except that I am not nine months pregnant. (or pregnant at all, for that matter) Just so ready to be home and settled in. I would like to get some nice rugs, this is our first time having wood floors and some rugs would be so nice. Our bedroom is lacking...we have yet to get any bed frame since we can hardly afford them right now. I would like to build one but that requires $$ and tools we don't have. I am watching craigslist like a hawk. Just waiting for a decent king size bed frame thats affordable. I don't care if it needs a lot of TLC. I'll take it. I just need some patience.

I know these next few months will be so hard, Marc starting law school, me at home with two little ones but I definately feel like I am going to grow. Our family will be stronger. Its a good feeling to have a challenge ahead. Framed in the positive, that is. Its going to be a good time in our life. I am going to settle right in, make my beautiful house our home. Marc is going to excel in his school. The girls will grow and make memories alongside me in our cozy cottage. Ocean and Luna will celebrate 3 birthdays there. Marc and I as well. When we are done with this time of our life I will be 25. Still so young, but it feels old to me. How different will I be? I am eager to watch Marc during this stage. Finally, in a area he feels good in. He has to buy a suit next semester...for job interviews and such. I love seeing that giddy, boyish charm in his eye when he talks about it. It's really sweet to watch.

I have a feeling that Ocean is going to bloom here. We have already talked about ballet classes. She seems to have her heart set on them. There is a hands-on children's museum within walking distance to our house. We are pretty excited about that! Ocean is just growing. Kinda breaks my heart to think about her being 6 when we are done. I can't believe it. I just want her to stay little...

I love how this on my mind thing has become a feature. Its my favorite feature I think...just ramblings. My thoughts...no direction, just laying it out there. Its therapeutic. Refreshing. Like swimming on a hot day. I guess thats all we need, really...just to voice our thoughts, helps us make sense of them. Get a grasp on what we are feeling.

I think I'm going to go soak up some sun with my little family now.
Thanks for reading. xoxo