It's really hard to believe that this year is coming to a close. I don't mean 2012, I mean the first year of Luna's life. Is she really going to be a year old next month!?
I have been going through old photos recently and have been moved to tears by several, especially those from our time in Asheville. It was a really hard time for me, for Marc...for us.
There was so much emotional drainage. It's hard to look back and feel good about those times but there were good days...and most of them are documented. A particularly good one we documented here. I noticed that on a lot of my good days I had Luna close to me, which makes sense considering that mothers reportedly produce higher levels of oxytocin while baby wearing.
Something about it being a part of who we are...our family history. Babywearing. Its really something I am proud of. From day one we stuck with our guns and resisted temptation to pop Ocean into a stroller or carseat and chose to keep her close, knowing how good it was to have her near us and I am SO thankful. This is a time I won't ever have back but I will look back at longingly. When I see photos of me wearing my girls I feel such a surge of love and joy come over my heart because I can honestly say that I made best choice possible, in that moment, for them. Even though I have failed them many times as a mother I have some strengths to draw on, something that keeps me going. My conviction to have them close to me is a powerful one. One of the best things I have ever done and I will continue to choose to do that, even though it may not be the most convenient for me in that moment.
I can remember how small she was in the sling then, so tiny and soft. I treasure these photos.
Picking strawberries one afternoon. Around 9 months.
I am proud of the history we are making together.
all images courtesy of my husband.
i am wearing the sakura bloom essential linen sling in raven maple and the simple silk sling in amber.
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