It's really hard to believe that this year is coming to a close. I don't mean 2012, I mean the first year of Luna's life. Is she really going to be a year old next month!?
I have been going through old photos recently and have been moved to tears by several, especially those from our time in Asheville. It was a really hard time for me, for Marc...for us.
There was so much emotional drainage. It's hard to look back and feel good about those times but there were good days...and most of them are documented. A particularly good one we documented here. I noticed that on a lot of my good days I had Luna close to me, which makes sense considering that mothers reportedly produce higher levels of oxytocin while baby wearing.
Something about it being a part of who we are...our family history. Babywearing. Its really something I am proud of. From day one we stuck with our guns and resisted temptation to pop Ocean into a stroller or carseat and chose to keep her close, knowing how good it was to have her near us and I am SO thankful. This is a time I won't ever have back but I will look back at longingly. When I see photos of me wearing my girls I feel such a surge of love and joy come over my heart because I can honestly say that I made best choice possible, in that moment, for them. Even though I have failed them many times as a mother I have some strengths to draw on, something that keeps me going. My conviction to have them close to me is a powerful one. One of the best things I have ever done and I will continue to choose to do that, even though it may not be the most convenient for me in that moment.
I can remember how small she was in the sling then, so tiny and soft. I treasure these photos.
Picking strawberries one afternoon. Around 9 months.
I am proud of the history we are making together.
all images courtesy of my husband.
i am wearing the sakura bloom essential linen sling in raven maple and the simple silk sling in amber.
My other Sakura Bloom posts:
what a bundle! I love the collection of pictures you put together <3 and it's amazing being able to hear how much of an experience it's been for you to grow so close to little Luna! so so beautiful!!
ReplyDeleteGreat post! I love babywearing and baby slings but haven't been able to wear my son very much after he reached 3 months old! I cracked my sternum and the bone is quite weak now so with his weight (he's quite chubby!) it got very sore. Still proud I carried him for the first 3 months, though! I carried my daughter for most of her first year and loved it. Makes you feel so close to your babies, doesn't it? :)
ReplyDeleteP.S. Luna's nose in that first picture? CUTE! ;)
Aw you guys look so happy. Your daughters are too cute!
ReplyDeleteHi! I just found your blog and I already love it! Just been reading back a little way and love the way you write - it feels like you're speaking honestly but with just the right amount of poetry. I'm always so in awe of people who can speak their hearts without gushing ( I really can't!). Just wanted to let you know that you now have a faithful reader (although a really lazy commenter ... sorry). Thanks for sharing your life x
ReplyDeleteAll of them, but that first photo especially: I can see why you'd have feelings of pride. I just discovered your blog and am a new mama-to-be. I'm pretty darn sure I'll be a baby-wearer. Time does go by so fast...why not keep them close when you can?
ReplyDeleteI have a question, and I hope it doesn't bother you that I'm asking (If so, please just ignore this comment)...
ReplyDeleteHow are things with your husband doing? From personal experience I know that having small children can be such a difficult time for a relationship and love to the significant other person sometimes can really suffer, so now I was wondering how things between you and your man are? You have such a beautiful family, I really hope you're doing good!